It only when we start to question
It only when we start to question the status quo that we get wind of the fact that we been driven for years by unhealthy motivations like our fear, egos and emotional wounds. Many people call it up, because you literally awaken to the fact that there is much more to you and life than you ever thought. It your job to commit to knowing who you are and what you really want out of life, to healing your emotional wounds (we all have them), and to living every day aware and awake.. The itchiness sounds like a stress reaction, kind of like how people break out into rashes when exposed to something they're allergic to. And understandably so; what you went through sounds traumatic. Do you at least have a family doctor you trust and can go to? You can let him know that you want the information shared with him/her to be confidential between the two of you, and even try asking if the insurance can be billed under a generic term to quell suspicion from your parents, like "general doctor&